Little less than three weeks until show time!!
This being the first time committing to this type of show I was not fully prepared for the hard work and dedication that is necessary to achieve this goal I set for myself!
Some days have been tough I have shed tears and I have laughed at myself,…maybe thats part menopause too, not sure lol! 🙂
Honestly there have been moments my thoughts have been give it up, eat that friggin Starbucks pumpkin spice muffin(one of my favourite things this time of yearLOL),what are you doing, this is hard, its time consuming,your too old (52), my body shape is not good enough, the negative self talk that kept me from doing this in my 30’s!!
But when I take a moment and revisit my goals, and think about how far I have come from two years ago mentally,.. I can now tell myself your never too old, I am not weak,… I am strong, I am not without discipline,…. I am disciplined, I am beautiful, I am unique, I am me and as hard as this process may seem I can and will do this!!
It may be difficult but it has taught me that I am stronger than I had imagined!!
These coming three weeks will be most difficult as the food menu changes to get to the body fat percentage desired and the workouts are heavy, never mind the posing and walking practice in those 4 inch heels I have never worn in my life, and believe me at the moment its not graceful by any means but I am up for the challenge!
Amongst all this working out and food prep and posing, an opportunity came up to model for a charity event, so I jump at the chance to get some practice wearing those heels and being up on stage with everyone starring at you,..yes this kind of scares me… but this whole process is also about facing fears, overcoming them and building confidence! I am proud of my progress and still have work to do but I understand that
Believing in yourself is half the battle!
If I can do this so can you!!
I am posting this in hopes of inspiring women,…. even if it is only one to follow your dreams you are never to old and it is never to late, don’t worry about what others think or say it doesn’t matter!
I am not perfect but I am me!!
Pics above of progress and of course the first ones I am a bit embarrassed about but when I see them all together with the pics from last week (Nov. 1/16) it gives me a sense of accomplishment!!
My Journey is my own!!